期待真的好难。。。

有时真得很需要人安慰的时候；你以为会安慰你的人却不会这么做。。。
有时真得很与要人聆听心声的时候；你认为了解你的人却不会洗耳恭听。。。
有时真得很需要人陪伴的时候；你最需要的人却不在身边。。。
深深的期待，同时也变成了大大的失望。。。
期待真的好难。。。

Final exam...

Now already week 12, as the time passed, I’m getting nervous, because the final exam getting near. I think I’m became more hard working than last semester d, however, my result getting worse then last semester. I do not know why it will be like that, may be majority I spend my time on reports but not study, and that why I do not have some improvement on my study. And as you see, the final exam is coming soon, and I still left 3 weeks to “recall” all my memory back… I do not know am I able to finish all the syllables, however, I will still try my best on it, cos I really really really hope that I can avoid supp this semester!!! I hate to study alone while all your friends are enjoy their three weeks holiday! The feelings are terrible, horrible and vegetable!!!

That's how I felt...

Chel chel phoned me today, purposely, ask me so directly the reason I’m being so down. And I just replay her that nothing happened, just too tired and tension, so bogging, that all. Actually, I have lots of thing to share but, all the words stuck in my mouth automatically once I heard her voice. I do not know how to express the feeling, and therefore tell nothing.

I knew that I being so emo recently; and yet I knew the reason why I felt and act like that; however, I do not know the way to control, minimize and release them… or clearly said, I don’t dare to tell due to some reasons...

Majority the problem come form me myself, I knew it, so I can not complain too much on that...

Question mark...

Sitting at the computer lab now, same way, same thing, same feeling… no exception.
I know it doesn’t go into the right direction that it should go; however, I do not know how to correct it. All the negative thought suddenly popped up, and it happened all the time…
And I always question myself, is it myself suffer myself?
Really felt so tired to try d, I really hope that some day it have some miracle happened. But when is it?
I wonder….

Night mare...

Just woke up form my nap, and having a night mare…
Do not know why I having this kind of night mare, however, It already tells me the end of the story that I used to predict….
I always looked forward for some thing; however, I scared to take some action, because I do not like “uncertainty”; just like Mr Patrik said today I’m that type of person who always sticks to traditional way, where they do not want to take risk to solve problem…
Haiz……
So if I keep on this kind of attitude, it is hard for me to change, and get some thing that I really desired….

隔离感；代沟；多心？？？

隐性的墙壁；跨越不了的河流； 还有深深的“自我保护意识”；
这都是我近来所收到的隐性的讯息。。。
具体来说：这些都是所谓的距离感；代沟；
而这些似有似无的状况已让我深深的感到不知所措；
也让我不知应采取什么样的反应来面对这一切。。。
努力？忽视？ 还是 顺其自然？
这一切的一切，我已深感心有余而力不足了；
也没有足够的勇气去打乱现有的程序。。。
所以只好保持着冷静；平淡；漠视；以及顺其自然的心静观其变；
但其实；
内心依旧期待明天会更好！！！

Happy Memories....

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Picture that gaped at 29th of Feb 2008, sharp at 00:00am

Vanue : Melati, PV 3

Rushing report, suddently said want to discuss assignment, then came out a cake, so supprise and touch.... Thank you all... Thz

o(>__<'')o

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Pictures gaped at 29th of Feb 2008!!!

Vanue : Wong Kok

Just finished classes, arround 4pm, although evry body was so tired, but still go to Wong Kok without having a shork break, and celebrate till 9pm...

Having so much fun and again thank you all, It will be the most precious memories in my life; Thanks you so much!!!

-- HaPPy B!rthDaY to Nick & I--

Y(^__^)Y

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29th of February....

29th of February, the day that will only presence once in four years; for others, it just a normal day, but for me, well, it is the special day – My Birthday !!!

If somebody asks me, what kind of special “technique” you have?
And for sure, my birthday will come first before I think of others specialize I have.

Many people said that I’m very pitiful because I can only celebrate my birthday once per four year, but for me, I don’t think so. Actually, I’m quite happy with my birthday date, cos it is special enough to let others remember very soon and very well once I told them.

Thank GOD, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Beside that, I also want to thanks those who plan for my birthday party celebration, and those who phone me and massage me purposely, THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!!!

Especially, Chia Wuen, Shwu Woan, Ray, Kenny, Wei Chun, Yong Chen, Anne, L3ng, Evelyn, Mei Sze, Chel chel, Dr, Chun Wah, Debbie, Sing Kiat, Mr Tian, Min San, Nicole, Shu Hui, Ah Y etc and of course Nick, brother who have the same day of birth with me!!! (Happy Birthday Nick!!!)

I can said that, I wound be so so so happy if you all do not celebrated with me; without you all, my birthday will just pass like routine days….

And I felt sorry to my family as well because unable to go back to celebrate with you all, however, I will celebrate again with you all after I go back!!! Haha, LOVE YOU, LAO DOU, LAO BU, LNK, LXJ & LXX!!! And thank to your PRESENT as well. It is the most unique present that I haven’t seemed before. It’s really SPECIAL & DIFFERENT from others. Kakaka ^^

So the thoughts for my 2008’s birthday is : Although there are some of my friend that I expected do not send their wishes to me, and this eventually makes me felt sad and disappointed.

However, I still got lots of you who are willing to spend your precious time together with me, and I felt so touched and extremely appreciate to what you have done to me!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

MY FRIEND, THZ!!!

Hope that we can celabrate the birthday praty together in the comming year!!!

I really does...

倒带...

Teardrops on my guitar...

My favourate song recently ^^

The singger: TAYLOR SWIFT is so beautiful!!!

Here's present to you : TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR

Never Ending...

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Test finished follow by assignment;

Assignment finished follow by reports;

Reports finished follow by presentation;

presentation finished then again comes testes...

Every thing start, must have an end,

but,

why these reports, assignment, test never come to an end???

I wonder...

I really do....

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Sorry pal...

Just finished management mid term test today. If like usual, i will just jump into my bed and sleep till night; however, dirrent from normal days, i dun jump into my bed's hug but straight away rush to lab and do some observation on my "dear kids"; after that, we continue our management assignment!!!

And we plan to finish the assignment today, but i really really tired (cos i just sleap for 1 hour yesterday night) so went for a nap. I plan to sleep for half an hour only, who knows, two hours passed. And all my group members helped me to done d..... so pai seh....

Haiz.... therefore, my job is to editing the assignment only.... and i really felt so sorry to my group members. Hope they can forgive me...

***Sorry ya, L3ng, N, Ys & Yc***

My dream lecture slide...

This is what we learned in school, but this one is much more intreseting compared to those lecture slide...

Really hope that all the lecture sildes can converted into this kind od alimation. I'm sure that the posibility for a student to memorise what lecturer teached will rise!!! ^^

Happy Enjoy-ing! d(>v<)b

最近比较忙...

今天突然发现自己已好久好久没写布罗格了。

扪心自问，原因何在？

其实理由十分简单，并且没啥说服力；

十之八九全都是因为课业繁忙。

成天不是报告，就是考试；

从没有一天可以让自个儿喘口气，闪闪神。

生怕一个留神就会错过什么天大的秘密似的。

生活过得好紧绷呐！！！

真期待有天可以什么都甭想，

好好的，痛快的，玩它个三天两夜，

哦，不，错乐。。。

即使是

一天一夜，

我也心甘情愿了。。。

Stop...

Recently always being busy with the reports, testes, assignment etc....

Some times really have to stop for a while and enjoy a nice song!!!

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Happy time...

Go shopping with my dear housemates yesterday, spend so much!!! Haiz…

Actually I plan to buy some cosmetic stuff and shirt to my parents, I really do. But, but, once I phoned my mum to ask what size does my dad ware, then straight away I been scolded. She told my do not buy any thing to them, save up those money!!! I suddenly felt cold and warm at the same time. Therefore, at last, end up with: I shopped for myself, with two pairs of shoes, three clothes, one trouser and three socks. OMG!!!!

Bloody hell, man!!!

In conclusion, I no long need to shop for 3 months at least d. seriously, I really need to change d, can not spend so much money, otherwise, I will become as poor as a beggar.

Clear up my mind...

Too many things happened recently;
So many of them until I do not know what reaction should I take to solve them.

Keep on insomnia recently;
Keep on wake up in the middle of night without any reason.

Felt so e-mo recently;
Felt so frustrated and do hope that I can run away from here, free from those disturbances that bother me.

Miss my family recently;
Miss my dad, my mum, my brother, my sisters, and my grand grand-mum who passed away last month.

……

So many negative thoughts around me, and I felt so stress now!!! I can’t help myself not to think about them!!! And that’s why they keep on happened, one by one, non-stop!!!

So, in order to bring these to an end, I must clear my mind up as soon as possible and return to a happy go lucky person that I used to be!!! Sure I can!!!

nothing...

I am being a bit emotional today without any reason…

...........

Well, can’t say that no reason at all, but a small thing only, however, I’m ok right now.
I figured it after I clam down, and I discovered that in fact, it’s nothing.

May be is because I can’t understand what lecturer had taught;

being lonely at class;

or there are too many homework that I could not finish;

other unexpected stuff and etc…

These actually nothing, but I still can’t help myself to be emotion toward it….
I must be more mature!!!!

This is the new target in order to change myself!!!

2008 in UTAR...

Long time no blog d... Today is the last day (consider last day la, qing cai la) of wek 2, and i just discovered that, i've never worry about homework like this before... I scared that I can not finish my tutorials, my reports and those assignment. Felt so tenssion suddently...

Although I’m already year 2 sem 1 in UTAR, but for me, this year is a whole new year for me, and I hope that all things will go smooth as it can!!!
Through the help of all my friends, and also myself, I’m sure that My hope will come true!!!
Jia you!!!