Recently, there were a hot topic among my friend which related couple. Why? Hehe, its due to the couple that stay together with us. And you know what, they can paktoing till they only see each other in their eyes and ignore others feeling.
Well, at the beginning i felt very happy coz she had found some one who really love her, and i strongly believe that every things will be maintain just like usual. But as the time passed, it proved that my thought was wrong. She start to ignore my feeling and always said and do some things that really hurt me. I felt sad and lonely, but i can't do any things, i couldn't cos she is my friend and i don't want to hurt her... Finally, i choose to accept and make myself understanding. But, it really really really tired...
I wish i could tell her my real feeling, " can you change a bit, some times i really can not tahan you d..." but once i feel like i want to voice out, i will force myself not to say any things cos i don't want our friendship turn bad. And this kind of situation keeping happen until my housemates ask me, why you want to do so? you have to be yourself, try to voice out, don't force yourself again... and that was the first time i discovered that there were some body who still stay at my site, I'm not alone! i felt warm and i really thank them so much...And they are the only way that i could released all my real feeling and released some stress, indirectly balance myself.
Thank you so much! thanks for giving me the way to "share" my thought...
Finally, i still want to sorry to her, cos i had complained so much about her. Hope that, some day she could discovers and change. No need too much, but try to be understand...
Well, at the beginning i felt very happy coz she had found some one who really love her, and i strongly believe that every things will be maintain just like usual. But as the time passed, it proved that my thought was wrong. She start to ignore my feeling and always said and do some things that really hurt me. I felt sad and lonely, but i can't do any things, i couldn't cos she is my friend and i don't want to hurt her... Finally, i choose to accept and make myself understanding. But, it really really really tired...
I wish i could tell her my real feeling, " can you change a bit, some times i really can not tahan you d..." but once i feel like i want to voice out, i will force myself not to say any things cos i don't want our friendship turn bad. And this kind of situation keeping happen until my housemates ask me, why you want to do so? you have to be yourself, try to voice out, don't force yourself again... and that was the first time i discovered that there were some body who still stay at my site, I'm not alone! i felt warm and i really thank them so much...And they are the only way that i could released all my real feeling and released some stress, indirectly balance myself.
Thank you so much! thanks for giving me the way to "share" my thought...
Finally, i still want to sorry to her, cos i had complained so much about her. Hope that, some day she could discovers and change. No need too much, but try to be understand...
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